The semester is basically over and I am writing my last pages of my final papers. I never thought I was going to be able to get through it but I did. Stressed and all, with pressure building on me not because of finals, but because I don’t want to let myself or anyone down.
I will be here at BW for another year and a semester after this.. IT is sad because a lot of my best friends will be graduating on time this upcoming semester. I am looking forward to my Holiday Break though. I get to go home and sleep on my couch hah. But really I am really tired of talking politics. I took 5 political science classes this semester, fraternity politics, and student senate. THIS HAS KICKED MY ASS! Don’t get me wrong I learned a ton. College isn’t always about the grades (Still do well in them) but it is about the experiences you encounter and the things you learn. It is a place to challenge your mind in multiple capacities and a place to find who your real friends are. This semester I have really found out who is there for me and will always be there for me. It doesn’t matter about being popular and having thousands of friends on facebook hah it is about the quality of the friends you keep. The friends that are with you even when you do the must fucked up shit. They are the ones that make fun of you for licking a pizza box, or puking after 58min.
I have learned that I need to have trust in others this semester. Be able to delegate and help share what you know to others. What is the point of knowing things and being a leader if you can’t share what you know to others. We are all here for each other and to work together. We all teach each other in some way. Help people grow and achieve to do great things, give people a chance. At the same time this takes stress off yourself. A lot of stress. Sometimes you can’t do everything you just need to say “no” and well I am still learning that. Sometimes you just have to say Fuck It and move on. We can’t dwell in the past and I know I do at times but it is tough.
I also need to take times or those I care about. I am always running around doing this and doing that. I need to stop with the “doing”. Life is too short to be constantly stressed out. If something doesn’t work out then there is time for something else.
During this break I am going to go back and do some of the “old” stuff that represents who I am. I am going to go back and start running a lot more. I want to run a 3rd marathon this spring. I also want to get back into my art work. I truly miss it and without it I feel like a part of me is lost. There are so many people here at school that don’t even know I like art only that I am there to make some poster for them. I also want to put on a sweet ass open mic night over break again too. Maybe a Day After Christmas Show “The Return of Santa” at Arabica in Parma Hts. You all should go. I also want to do some things with my sisters and teach them what I know, and maybe help them find a focus of what they love. My one sister is amazing at taking pictures I just wish she would grow on that and try making it into something more. She has the talent so maybe I can work with her and be a big brother. My other sister well she needs just some motivation to keep her on track.
I also can’t wait to go out with my friends, and visit people from school. New Years Eve should be fun as well. I plan on catching up with people as well that I haven’t been able to since I have been so busy. Hopefully I will not have to get my wisdom teeth out over break because well they are killing me right now.:(
Oh yeah I also can’t wait to be shoveling the driveways and rearrange cars in the driveway oh joy!
Since I will be on break I should be posting a lot more on here. So Stay tuned!! If anyone ever reads this anyways… thought soo no one.
With that being said I say goodbye to myself.
